Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Today I am leaving for Houston. I don't know how long I will be there.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Today I am not going anywhere because I lost my house key, so I am going to catch up on some reading. I'm currently reading "SM 101" by Jay Wiseman and it is a lot better than "Screw the Roses, Give Me the Thorns."

Also, it is hairwashing day, so I will take care of that in the afternoon.

Monday, 12 April 2010

Today my plans are to organize my closet and call the psychiatrist to make an appointment so he can change my meds.

today

I may go and volunteer at Treasure City Thrift. Also I am going to see if there is a Buddhist meeting anywhere.

Sir Ryan is helping me get some more structure in my life

...so he asked me to write down my goals and plans for each day. I think this will help me feel more disciplined and not like I am just mindlessly going through each day.

On the agenda for today...so far, anyway

getting a new phone charger from the T-mobile store
ordering some books from Amazon
cleaning up the bathroom
checking e-mail and Facebook
oh, yeah, eating!

I will probably add to this list throughout the day.

went to Half-Price Books...

...and found a copy of Screw the Roses, Send Me the Thorns. It seems pretty interesting so far.

I will probably order some more books tomorrow once my debit card is working.

Klein Sexual Orientation Grid

I scored an average of 4.1

0

1

2

3

4

5

6

Heterosexual

Bisexual

Homosexual

Meaning

This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale:


0 = exclusively heterosexual
1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more
than incidentally homosexual
3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual
4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally
heterosexual
5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6 = exclusively homosexual

Summary

The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us.

Take the quiz

submitting to an asshole...can't do it

I decided that I can't do the dominance/submission thing with the ex anymore because he just turns into a complete whining baby/asshole.  I am tired of always having to go over the same fantasies with him (e.g. group sex, interracial sex) with him, fantasies that I have no intention of ever making a reality.  My fantasies just end up being minimized, or at worst, ignored.

Is there a man out there that I could have a healthy kinky relationship with?  I am not even super kinky.  I like the mind games more than anything.  Nobody has to beat me to a bloody pulp.